Facing a new year often provides excitement with a little trepidation of what the new year may bring. I always look forward to this time of year, anticipating the new joys and sorrows of living another year. This year I find myself in an “unplanned” place – recovering from surgery and unable to play my handbells. It has been a difficult spot for me to occupy. Making music breathes new life into my soul. Even when I am learning new music, which is often stressful and tedious, the music making nourishes me. I miss that nourishment. I am uncomfortable in my cast. I am tired. I can’t drive. Heck, I can’t even tie my own shoes! (we won’t talk about all the other things I can’t do at the moment!). And I miss the bells. I am trying hard to “rest” in this place. Remember how I mentioned the importance of “rests” in music in my last blog? I’m finding it quite difficult. I don’t know how to “rest.” I live my life at a hectic pace, and I’ve been slowed to a near stop with this injury. So how does one go from 90 mph to a slow, leisurely pace? I am working hard at being in the moment. I’m enjoying the extra time I have with my husband. I’m sitting outside and enjoying our beautiful weather. And I’m thinking about the music I will be able to play when I have recovered. I am preparing myself for the hard work I know is ahead of me when all the hardware is removed from my thumb. It will be worth it. I will be ready. I want my music back.
I wish all of you a happy and safe New Year!
I have been there with my arm encased in plaster! Think of the cast as your PASS on all the unenjoyable things you must do- “sorry I can’t (wash the dishes,scrub the toilet, clean up/pick up animal poop, etc) I have a cast on my hand.” Think of the handbells as spiritual/magical and how much MORE joy you will feel once you can ring again. It sucks and is a hard road to travel, and we did/are! But remember, God only gives you exactly what you can handle- and you can handle it, friend! Hang in there!
I’m praying for both God’s grace and His peace as you navigate the days and weeks of this journey… and I’m loving you lots!
Loved this, Linda!