Facing a new year often provides excitement with a little trepidation of what the new year may bring. I always look forward to this time of year, anticipating the new joys and sorrows of living another year. This year I find myself in an “unplanned” place – recovering from surgery and unable to play my handbells. It has been a difficult spot for me to occupy. Making music breathes new life into my soul. Even when I am learning new music, which is often stressful and tedious, the music making nourishes me. I miss that nourishment. I am uncomfortable in my cast. I am tired. I can’t drive. Heck, I can’t even tie my own shoes! (we won’t talk about all the other things I can’t do at the moment!). And I miss the bells. I am trying hard to “rest” in this place. Remember how I mentioned the importance of “rests” in music in my last blog? I’m finding it quite difficult. I don’t know how to “rest.” I live my life at a hectic pace, and I’ve been slowed to a near stop with this injury. So how does one go from 90 mph to a slow, leisurely pace? I am working hard at being in the moment. I’m enjoying the extra time I have with my husband. I’m sitting outside and enjoying our beautiful weather. And I’m thinking about the music I will be able to play when I have recovered. I am preparing myself for the hard work I know is ahead of me when all the hardware is removed from my thumb. It will be worth it. I will be ready. I want my music back.
I wish all of you a happy and safe New Year!